I am a high level fix-ator. For better or worse, I will obsess, become overtaken by newness, by learning, by biology. I got that black lab in me.

Music has long been my top obsession, to the point that my wife says “you don’t listen. You consume.” Maybe its the music that consumes me. Did I start this? Or did biology?

Now, here we are a group of land walkers, generally terrible in the water, worse in the air, and not all that wonderful on land much of the time. Physical acumen aside, we have the capacity for love and hatred to the highest degrees. We can discern, problem solve and over-think and make assumptions. We are intelligent idiots full of hubris on what we think we know. We “want” to be present but can’t get out of the past projections onto our futures. And yet, we are glorious in all of this. It is this humanity that makes it worth our consciousness.

The question of why we change careers in search of meaning haunts anyone who has felt the inevitable ennui of existing in our modernist – post modernist even – existence. If you wake up one morning and ask the dress in the back of the closet “What love’s got to do with it?”, you might get the reply, “Absolutely nothing.” I ask my shoes quite frequently, and all they ever saw is “slorp, squish, scuff, slorp”.

Hubris is a hell of a drug.

God is fabric. Life fabric. Connective fabric. It is weavable. Since we are fabric, we are God, and therefore, we can weave the patterns of happenings throughout the universe.

Meditation much like dreaming is an area that is often hard to bring information back from. And into the real world. The liminal space that is entered is a place of practice, release, letting go, and unstrapping the mind.

As we watch the colors change and contemplate the passing of life, I hope we can all consider how it works together and not judge its right or wrongness. If we are to "close the loop" in our judgements, we must be able to find that Middle Way.